unexpressed feelings

THE CONFUSED STATE

       

   

Its just a depiction of state of mind...i dunno  whether you experienced this....

 It was a pleasant day...and i sipped my tea..yeah...the mood was good...and while I sipped my last one..I felt something clumsy running in my mind...cant figure out what it is...that insecure feeling popped up..when everything around me was secure...It was like you dont get privacy and ppl are noticing you...When I reached out to my old well known friend..actually he is my ex crush..(when your ex crush becomes your goodfriend..its kinda comfortable..)..had no idea of what is happening..just trolled me...yeah..guys cant figure out whats in a girl's mind..I just wrote my exact feeling on a piece of paper..it quoted like.."I wanna throw this cup..and hear the sound of it breaking..shout so loud..punch someone's face..(that might sound arrogant  and violent)"and folded the sheet and sat quietly...This state of mind had no reason...and mood changed like I felt calm and humble....and read the piece of paper and laughed like a hell...and wrote a letter to myself to be read when I reach this confused state again...

  Its like something which pops up suddenly and disappears in minutes...Controlling this temper..is bit more complicated...